Saturday, July 29, 2006
Chronic Exhaustion
Chronic Exhaustion- The feeling you get when you do the same old shit every day and every night for months on end. This is the condition I am suffering from lately...mixed with this terrible boredom..and a wee bit of depression/rage/sadness.... I know..it sounds like the same old shit...different day..Cat's sad, poor Cat... But really...I would challenge anyone who would like to know what it's like to live in my shoes to find the 3 most rambunctious little boys on the face of the earth....and shut themselves up in a house for damn near 3 months with these boys....and then add to that the fact that due to the rambunctiousness of the boys that they can't take them anywhere in public for fear that they will embarrass you....or break something...or break themselves....and then add to that that if you turn your back for even a second you will end up with a wall peeled of all it's wallpaper, or a toilet clogged by a toy, or something dumped all over the floor somewhere.. I have done some things this summer to try to remedy my situation....I bought a pool...and we played and played in it until it got old...and besides who wants to go out in to hundred plus degree temperatures to go swimming and risk burning their skin off in the sun? I have rearranged furniture...maybe in some strange way I was trying to make the house feel like somewhere else...makes sense to me...but it didn't work...it still feels like the same old place... I have cleaned things....God knows I feel like I have spent the entire summer cleaning something or other...what I wouldn't give to go somewhere that was already clean for a couple of days, and have a maid pick up after me...I would give my right arm for a spa trip for a week....but in reality it's never going to happen...mainly because it's too expensive...and who has thousands of dollars to blow on a spa trip? Certainly not me... And if anyone leaves a comment saying.."But Cat..You could have a spa week right in your own home.. Take bubble baths, do facials, do pedicures and manicures...." I will come through the screen and knock your damn teeth out....Yes...of course I could do all of that here in my house...but it wouldn't be the same soaking in a bubble bath with a little boy standing there telling me that his brother just peed on the floor in the other bathroom...kinda ruins the relaxation factor right? My only salvation is that the kids go back to school on August 16. That is 19 days from now....just under 3 weeks...456 hours....27,360 minutes...yeah I know...it's a LONG time when you think about it that way.....but I keep telling myself every morning when I wake up that if I can just make it til 9pm(that's bedtime for the kids now since I am trying to get them back into their school bedtime routine) without killing anyone that day will be over and I will be one more day down...Not a truly healthy mindset but then again who the hell has all healthy and pure thoughts anyways....nobody that I know.. So there it is...that's where my head's at...if you identify with me....good....if not....sorry....
Posted by Catwmn ::
8:49 AM ::
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